Neman
Forest
Celia was sitting on a bench at the edge
of the endless woods. Around her there was as a carpet of flowering wood
anemones and the oaks above her head cast a light green shadow. She had a small
table in front of her and she was playing patience, the cards slowly
accumulating.
Bronwyn approached from
the main council buildings. She walked slowly across the lawn and down to where
Celia was sitting. She was very concerned; Celia had been staying with them for
some time. She had needed time to recover physically, but now she was strong
and well, but she still lingered on, saying little and seeming unusually
fragile. Bronwyn was not only worried about Celia’s state of mind – she also
knew that unless Celia showed some improvement soon, her sister would want to
get involved, and that she would take a direct approach. Bronwyn had seen
Gwyneth do that many times before and it was not at all pleasant to watch.
Celia didn’t look up until
Bronwyn was directly in front of her.
She smiled and began to gather up the cards.
‘Did you win?’ asked
Bronwyn
Celia began shuffling
the cards absentmindedly.
‘I didn’t get to the
end’ she said
To Bronwyn she still
looked pale and rather sad.
‘Can I sit with you
for a while?’
Celia nodded and
smiled.
‘Of course…’
Celia put the cards
down on the table and moved up to allow Bronwyn to sit comfortably beside her.
‘Will you join us for
breakfast, or shall I get something brought out to you?’
Celia shrugged.
‘It’s a lovely day –
I think I’ll just stay out here…If you don’t mind…’
‘Of course I don’t –
although I would love to have your company’
‘Maybe tomorrow…’
This wasn’t the first
time that they had had this conversation. Bronwyn sighed softly and wondered
whether, once again, she might be wasting her time. However, Celia was one of
her closest friends and one of the most skilful and admired council members.
‘How are you feeling
today?’
‘I’m fine, Bron,
really I am – I’m still feeling a bit weak…’
Bronwyn nodded, but
she couldn’t bring herself to believe that that was true. She would have to try
to dig out the truth again. Her voice was soft.
‘You still haven’t
said exactly what happened …’
Celia looked away
into the deep green centre of the wood.
Her heart wouldn’t admit the truth, because it was too painful to face, too
difficult to face the fear and hatred that her enemy had ignited inside her.
‘He damaged me’ she responded
after a long pause, ‘and it will take some time to heal’
Bronwyn waited until
her friend turned back to look at her. She scanned her face, trying to make
sense of what she meant.
‘But you seem well
now – you seem healed’
Celia’s eyes misted briefly
but then she shook herself. Bronwyn was
quite shocked – this wasn’t like her at all.
‘I don’t think that I
can do something like that again, Bron’
Bronwyn was now even
more shocked – Celia was about the most undaunted person she had ever met.
‘But you were
fabulous! Everyone says so… you defeated him fair and square…’
‘Not really – I was
lucky’
Bronwyn was utterly
bemused.
‘You can’t defeat an
enemy like him with luck…’
‘He was
overconfident’ said Celia, her voice trailing off, ‘that’s all it was…’
She looked down on
the ground as if searching for a lost pin. She didn’t seem to want to look
Bronwyn directly in the eye.
‘I don’t think that I
believe that, Celia – you’re the last person qualified to comment on your
achievements’
Celia shrugged. She
looked uncomfortable, and so Bronwyn decided to change the subject.
‘How’s Owen?’ she
asked, thinking that this, at least, was an uncontroversial subject.
Celia looked up, with
deep concern on her face.
‘What do you mean?’
Bronwyn smiled to
reassure her.
‘Umm, nothing, at all
– I was just wondering what he had been up to’
Celia jumped at her.
‘Have you heard that
something might be wrong?’
‘No – not at all.
Anyway, you’d be the first to know if Owen was in trouble, I’m sure’
Celia’s look
sharpened into suspicion.
‘Why on earth do you
say that?’
Bronwyn gulped. How
had she got to this? And why was she getting such an odd response? She carried
on as best she could.
‘Because you’re his
best friend, of course…’
‘What makes you think
that?’ Celia snapped, ‘don’t go around saying that! He’s just a colleague’
Bronwyn’s heart
skipped a beat. How could that be? It had been an open secret that Owen and
Celia had had a thing about each other for ages now. They must have fallen out,
but this seemed inconceivable; they were about the most harmonious pair she had
ever met. Why was Celia saying these things?
‘What’s happened? How
did you two…?’
Bronwyn stopped.
Celia’s eyes were welling up and she was shaking her head, imploring her to say
nothing more. Bronwyn felt her friend’s sorrow seeping over her, as if it was
some horrible, dispiriting disease. She put her hand up to her face, stood up
and turned to hide her own inexplicable tears.
‘I must go to
breakfast’ she muttered, and then she walked rapidly back to the safety of the
buildings.
Celia stopped weeping
almost immediately, pulling herself together with a considerable effort. She got
up and walked into the woods. They were full of the buzz of spring, and the
green of new growth, but it felt as cold to her as if it were December. A deer
darted out of the undergrowth, stood twitching uncertainly for a second, and
then ran back the way she had come. Celia hardly noticed; her mind went
churning on.
She wandered on, deep
in thought, turning over in her mind, for the umpteenth time, her confrontation
with the evil witch, Kratos; a victory that she wished had never happened. Now she had to live with the consequences of
her actions, and it had taken a long time to decide what she should do.
However, now she had
a plan and she had every intention of sticking to it, at whatever personal
cost. She would have to change her entire life, and that would be unbearable,
but it had to be done. She wasn’t quite ready yet, but when she had gained
enough courage she knew what she must do. She would retire somewhere where
no-one could reach her, do no more magic, and resign from the coven. Only in
that way could she protect the dearest thing in her life, by ensuring that she
never saw him again. Then, she hoped, no-one would trace the thread of her feelings
back to him. She would sacrifice her love for his life. Of course that would
also sacrifice his love for her, but that hadn’t occurred to her yet.