They walked on, following Viola. For
most of them it was all very disconcerting, with periods of vague wandering
followed by fleeting moments when they thought that perhaps they saw the road
themselves. Dom stayed at the back. He
had mumbled something about guarding the rear, but in reality he just didn’t
want to give any impression that he knew the correct route too. Viola was happy
to be able to lead and to dictate the pace, although she was niggled by yet
another example of her strange abilities. Kath had assumed that it was all
something to do with Ophia, but Viola thought this a too general explanation to
be useful.
After a few miles
they spotted the milestones again, but this time sunk into the side of the road
so that only someone who was already on the track would know where they were.
Even the parrots flying overhead would have been unable to find them. Bit by
bit the miles counted down. That night they stopped at the stone six miles out from
the city.
For the last three nights, ever since
they had started walking on the cryptic road, they had allowed themselves the
luxury of a small fire. It was much colder on the top of the plateau and the
parrots, especially, were feeling the cold. They were grateful to be able to
hop about in front of the modest flames. The others were happy to be able brew
some coffee and having something hot with their dry rations.
After supper there
was a murmur of quiet conversation and then one by one they went off to sleep.
The parrots were asleep by the end of twilight. Hardacre was next to doze off –
he was still recovering from the spells he had cast days before. He had had no
proper rest since then. Eventually there was just Dom, who had the first watch
and Viola, who was finding it increasingly difficult to sleep as they got
closer to their goal. Since they had lost their tents, as well, she felt very
exposed sleeping rough. She wriggled under
her blankets, and eventually got up to warm herself on the glow of the dying
fire.
‘Are you feeling
alright?’ Dom whispered to her, coming up closer so that they didn’t have to
speak too loudly. Viola’s face was just visible in the quarter light.
‘I’m just a little
apprehensive’
‘I can understand that’
‘It seems a long way
away from home’ admitted Viola, shivering slightly
‘Do you have family
there?’ asked Dom, who realised that he knew almost nothing about Viola’s life.
Viola didn’t answer
for some time. Dom began to wonder if he’d inadvertently offended her.
‘I never said before…’
Viola said, ‘perhaps I should have…’
Dom had no idea what
she was talking about. He said nothing.
‘I’m an orphan too’
Dom was surprised.
‘You are?’
Viola lent across and
found Dom’s shoulder. She grasped it softly.
‘So we share
something…’
Was this what they had in common? The road would only
reveal itself to orphans? Surely not.
‘Do you know who your
parents were?’ asked Dom
Viola’s darkening
silhouette nodded – it was only just visible now.
‘They were two Ortian
elves –they died during the first Tlaxacan war.
My father was a carpenter and my mother an artist. My father died before
I was born and my mother when I was about three. I don’t remember her, though. A
priestess in the temple brought me up – she was very kind’
‘So, how did you end
up in the Imperial army?’
‘They wanted me to be
a priestess too, but I had no real, umm, spiritual talents. Then people noticed
how “observant” I was and Cassius, Marthian’s father, got me a job in the
Imperial intelligence service. Then Marthian inherited me’
He hadn’t been
expecting all this information and he felt it only polite to contribute
something himself.
‘Everyone wants me to be a diplomat’
‘What sort of a
diplomat do you think they meant’
‘Some sort of envoy
to Eth I think – I’ve never paid the idea much attention’
‘Why’s that?’
‘I plan to go to
Kinspit and train to be a full mage’
She made a little
non-vocal noise of encouragement. He got the strong feeling that something else
was on her mind.
‘Are you still
concerned about anything?’ he asked, just stopping himself from saying ‘perhaps
you’re concerned about me’
‘Well, to be honest
with you, I don’t know if I should be concerned or not…’
Dom’s mouth dried
just a little.
‘About what?’
‘I know that you can see the way…’she
whispered
Dom’s heart sank. He
could barely believe it. He didn’t even consider denying it.
‘But how? How do you
know?’
‘I know because
you’ve tried so hard to show that you don’t know. The others wander aimlessly –
your blundering has been very measured. You must have realised by now – I
notice things’
Dom’s heart was
beating very fast.
‘Do they know?’ he
hissed
‘I doubt it. How
could they?’
‘They couldn’t’ he said, confused by the
twists and turns of the conversation.
‘Why didn’t you tell
me?’ she asked, an edge developing in her voice.
‘I’m not sure, Viola,
I just felt strange about it. I can’t explain it…’
Viola pulled a long
branch from the embers of the fire. One end was cold and the other still
glowing. As she lifted it out and up the air set it aflame again. She used the
rekindled light to illuminate his face.
‘Answer me this then
– do you know why you can spot the way?’
He shook his head.
‘I really don’t’ he
insisted
Viola held the branch
very close to his face. It wasn’t dangerous but Dom immediately thought of her
reputation. She was slow to anger but the consequences of angering her might just
be fatal. She spoke in a very cold, commanding, voice.
‘Are you keeping
something from me?’
Dom wondered how much
further he had to go before his back was against the wall. He began to shake
his head, but then he stopped himself. If not now, then when?
‘Yes, I am’ he said,
very clearly, ‘I’m a hybrid’
‘What’s that?’ she
asked, in all innocence
‘An elf-human hybrid’
he replied softly ‘a mule…’
Viola dropped the
branch and it extinguished almost immediately. They were in almost total
darkness.
‘I’ve never…’
‘Met one before?’
interrupted Dom, ‘not many elves have. Apparently it’s a very rare thing’
‘How did it happen?’
Dom laughed without
humour.
‘I think I’ll let you
work that out for yourself’
‘I mean – was your
mother a… or…’
‘I only know what my
gods-father told me: my mother was an elf and my father was a human – is that
what you mean?’
‘Yes…’
Dom had no way of
judging Viola’s reaction other than by the tone of her voice. She seemed
surprised but not shocked or disgusted. It was hard to say if she was still
angry.
‘So, now you know…’ He
was almost daring her to react in some way.
‘Why didn’t tell me
before?’
‘I wasn’t sure how
you’d take it. My gods-father had warned me that...well... as he put it – not everyone can stomach a mule’
Viola’s voice now
hinted at exasperation.
‘I’m sure that there
hasn’t been a hybrid in Ortia for three generations. Our prejudices tend to be
against northern barbarians in general...’
‘I’m from
Gorodnikov...’Dom muttered, rather missing the point.
‘Exactly...’
‘So...’ said Dom, ‘is
it a problem that I’m a hybrid? I’m sorry that I kept it from you... it didn’t
seem relevant to our mission.’
There was a short pause and then Viola said,
‘no – it’s not a big problem; but it seems that it may well be relevant’.
A silence fell, which
Dom felt unable to interrupt, and which worried him more than what she had said
earlier. He should have told her, he knew, if not at the beginning then when
things began to get difficult. He felt that he had been a failure as a group
member and, even more seriously, as a friend. He’d been a moral coward and that
was something he’d never expected to be. I’m
weak under pressure he told himself and it depressed him.
When Viola finally spoke
again the tone of her voice had changed. She seemed almost apologetic.
‘I’m in no position to criticise. I have
secrets myself that even I don’t know about’
Dom now wished that
they had some light again. It sounded as if she was concerned that she might
have a comparable secret to him, perhaps one that would be equally disturbing. But
if she didn’t know what it was there was no way that he would. It was time to
try to change angles.
‘Why do you know the
way, major?’ he asked, ‘if it’s not because you’re a hybrid.’
‘How do I know any of
those things? How do I know about the fire snakes? How did I know how to pass
through the Wall? How did I get into the bell tower in Melloreis? ’
Her voice wavered and
the plaintive sound washed over him.
‘I don’t know…’
admitted Dom, engulfed in the tide of her distress.
‘Because Ophia talks
to me, that’s why’
‘But why does she
talk to you?’
‘I don’t know – to
torment me? Perhaps it’s because there is something about me that is clearly
not quite right…’
The ‘just like you’
was left hanging in the air. To Dom, Viola’s empathy felt like cold comfort.
‘Will you tell the
others?’ he asked
‘What’s there to
tell?’ she answered, ‘I don’t know what’s wrong with me…’
Dom sighed. He made
no attempt to hide his irritation.
‘About me’ he
muttered, ‘not about you…’
Viola response was
almost too soft to be audible.
‘I’m so sorry’ she
said, ‘I won’t tell them. I promise you that I won’t’
‘Thank you. I’ll be
very happy if this conversation remains just between us’
‘So will I’
‘It’s my watch’ Dom
said, desperate to end the conversation, ‘you should try to get some sleep’
‘Yes, I know’ agreed
Viola, ‘but I don’t find that sleep comes easily these days…’
‘Because of your
dreams?’
‘Yes, because of them
– it is hard to fall asleep when you both dread and crave your own dreams…’
Their talk was over. Viola
tried to settle down under her blankets: Dom sat and watched the night bed in
and the bright stars appear. There was no moon.
If I live forever, he
wondered, will the constellations move
for me? When I finally die, will it be under a different sky?
The stars remanded
reassuringly immobile, at least for the time being. Dom sipped at a mug of
coffee, which was rapidly growing cold. Gloom and guilt gathered around him. He
studied them carefully – he hadn’t met them much before.